Logan-my hero

I have not been written yesterday. We had our Anniversary, but that was not the only reason. Verena was there yesterday. I am not sure if I ever said it, but my best friend doesn't live in Munich. So it will take some months until I see her again. The day before yesterday I had a lot of doubts. I told her about it. I had actually the feeling she would just tell me that I am right with this feelings that I have. I mean my doubts. Especially since I had tell her that the day before yesterday and she didn't say nothing. But yesterday she had started again. I clearly thought  now she will tell me immediately that she believes that I have not the talent to write. But the opposite was the case. She was really convincing. She said that she believes in the story. Even the written convinced of it. I am a beginner, this is nothing new. But she found many situations that she really liked and then she has read them to me. It was strange in the beginning. But then I understood why she did it. Youna is a person, she has her own voice and you can see it clearly. She has her own story more or less and in many parts. It is very nice to read. However, I also had to tell Verena that she is right with the second chapter. Perhaps a few details are missing, but it is really good. Maybe better than the others and it has lots of info that makes the reader  curios. Maybe I should actually delete the first chapter. Clearly, there are then 14 missing pages, but who cares? Me not, if it has then a good beginning. The good start it needs. A good beginning which writers are always looking for.  And after she has read it to me, I actually saw it. It is suitable to read out loud. Not every situation is, but which book has that?I don't know one. I bought Ruby Red and have had yesterday finally in the bath, time to read it. Of the first 5 pages I was severely impressed, but then as she describes the House I found it bland. I wanted to just skip through it, but I know what it is about.   And  I thought to myself, that I may miss something important. Was not so. So what heck? My book has not only perfect parts, but it has damn good ones and I can now say that with conviction. It will be good, that I know for sure. No matter whether I sell it to a Publisher or not. It doesn't matter, I've created something fun to read. This is always on the person who reads it, but it doesn't matter. At the moment when I read about Youna and Logan, it tingles in my stomach. At least in me, and if that is all, then it was worth it. Often, people are looking for a book which creates exactly this feeling. Also, I have a new hobby that is better than reading. It's also nice just to read. You can be surprised, and you don't know what will happen next. But to write a story itself is just crazy. It is as I could create a world and to take over one of the most important parts in it. How can you escape the sometimes boring reality better? I have no answer. There are many hobbies in the world that produce probably similar feelings, but not for me and that I've finally realized. It is always fun. Any part of this work. Sometimes more, sometimes less. That's always been the case. When I hear certain songs, I think immediately of Logan and Youna and there unique love, like for example demons of imagine dragons. It is easy, because this title tell a lot of it, but when I found it, it  was still unknown (to me), and it fits so perfectly to Logan. The love he feels for Youna and that from the first moment. His world has changed. His plans were different and are so extremely different from the point he is now. This plans can  never mean the same for him, after meeting Youna. That he has experienced the feeling of love and well, to what I say. I have created this. Logan is the most interesting person in this story for me. Even though they are all unique and great. But he has the most to lose and he is still  my favorite character in the story. This entry was actually my personal entry in my write diary. I have previously always precisely planned all my post and thought about what I should write. Never have I just putt one of my entries here, but it says so much for myself, that I would not forget. I wouldn't like to lose it under all of my thousand entries in my private diary. Not it is online and I find it easier if I doubt again. Good night every one.