I am finally finished

Yes it's true. I am finally finished. It took me more than one year, but I can say it out loud. I wrote a book that I like and that I am proud of. It is only in German right now, but I hope that I can pay one day a professional to gay to translate it. Here on this Webpage it is for free http://www.bookrix.de/_ebook-andrea-b-huysamen-symbiose/

I will send it out on Monday next week. I have the Weekend still to fix my CV and my Little Exposé. I also decided to send it to an Agent and not to a Publisher. I have a Chance to get published, if the agencies like it. I mean, don't take me wrong. I do believe in the Story and in Youna and Logan, but the market is huge and I am not sure that my book is good as all the other ones. We will see what strangers say to it and not my friends and Family. That was it what I had today to say. Maybe two months from today on I can say I HAVE A CONTRACT :-) If not, I will sale it on Amazon

 

Good morning or good Evening to all of you.

 

Kiss Kiss

Little problems, Big success?

30.04.2013

So, today is a public holiday and I should have work hard on the book, but it wasn’t. First reason is, because Eugene was there. I don’t know why, but this is bugging me, when he is at home and I can’t work. Then he was at work, but I had started to read the book for the school Erebus. Then, I wanted to have it done and kept on reading. 480 Pages and I made it in less than 24 hours. Well, I had very many pages just flew over, but I've got everything I needed to know. That’s the most important thing. Yesterday I read even the other book, Kiss of the demon, and I liked it. It is really crazy how much I want to read right now. I'm really addicted to it. I already have the second part of the book, laying next to me, but before I want to work on symbiosis. Verena finds the name by the way good. Well, and it is also somehow fitting. No idea. I'll see. After I've now read these books Ruby Red + and now this demons-Kiss book, I have the impression my book is stupid. The people are good, but somehow not like these bestsellers. Youna simply thinks too little or too rational. It is not like the other characters in these books. Bella from twilight was also rational but still she had something special. This is not always the case with Youna. The situations I get this great feeling of her, the situations I think I succeeded, I can count them on one hand. No idea what else I could do with her. This means again a lot of more work for me. The story has still spelling errors. And the logic part is also not completely done and now that with Youna too. But and this is the most important, I have not sent anything away. It is still here, safe with me. If I ask the best of myself and criticize me enough by my own, only then I can, and I will have success. I am convinced. The story itself will maybe (no for sure) not find approval from everyone. I am sure there will be people who say that it has the wrong message for young people. People who say that the story conveys a false morality, it is cheesy or the end is stupid. But if someone writes well, there is a little chance of hearting the Author. Many things will be forgiven by the reader, if the story is great written. Things, that itself would interfere with a fan or where they think: I would have written it different. The choice of words and the behavior of the characters must be perfect, and that is not the case with me or Youna. I read only books that have celebrated a great success. The books are all in a series that is already long finished. They found already a lot of readers and that is why I automatically compare my book with these ones. I always end up saying:  damn, those are better, so much better. I don’t know what I should do with Youna, so that it reflects what I would like to have. But well, no more whining.

Here is a different subject now.  I had a Idea about a girl who used to take drugs. More I can’t say now. I didn’t really work much on it, because I am to busy with Youna. But this idea popped up in my head. And while I took a shower this morning, I found two great and fitting names for the boys in the story.  I think I would like to call the two brothers Eddy and Eliot. For the girl I like Sarah. Somehow I like also willow. I still don't know.

 But the biggest problem I still have is that I still have to go to work. It would be much cooler to stay at home and write. Now, I'll do my best. There are always bestsellers in this world and why should I not be one of them? I can do it, if I just want it enough and do my best.

That was it for today.

Logan-my hero

I have not been written yesterday. We had our Anniversary, but that was not the only reason. Verena was there yesterday. I am not sure if I ever said it, but my best friend doesn't live in Munich. So it will take some months until I see her again. The day before yesterday I had a lot of doubts. I told her about it. I had actually the feeling she would just tell me that I am right with this feelings that I have. I mean my doubts. Especially since I had tell her that the day before yesterday and she didn't say nothing. But yesterday she had started again. I clearly thought  now she will tell me immediately that she believes that I have not the talent to write. But the opposite was the case. She was really convincing. She said that she believes in the story. Even the written convinced of it. I am a beginner, this is nothing new. But she found many situations that she really liked and then she has read them to me. It was strange in the beginning. But then I understood why she did it. Youna is a person, she has her own voice and you can see it clearly. She has her own story more or less and in many parts. It is very nice to read. However, I also had to tell Verena that she is right with the second chapter. Perhaps a few details are missing, but it is really good. Maybe better than the others and it has lots of info that makes the reader  curios. Maybe I should actually delete the first chapter. Clearly, there are then 14 missing pages, but who cares? Me not, if it has then a good beginning. The good start it needs. A good beginning which writers are always looking for.  And after she has read it to me, I actually saw it. It is suitable to read out loud. Not every situation is, but which book has that?I don't know one. I bought Ruby Red and have had yesterday finally in the bath, time to read it. Of the first 5 pages I was severely impressed, but then as she describes the House I found it bland. I wanted to just skip through it, but I know what it is about.   And  I thought to myself, that I may miss something important. Was not so. So what heck? My book has not only perfect parts, but it has damn good ones and I can now say that with conviction. It will be good, that I know for sure. No matter whether I sell it to a Publisher or not. It doesn't matter, I've created something fun to read. This is always on the person who reads it, but it doesn't matter. At the moment when I read about Youna and Logan, it tingles in my stomach. At least in me, and if that is all, then it was worth it. Often, people are looking for a book which creates exactly this feeling. Also, I have a new hobby that is better than reading. It's also nice just to read. You can be surprised, and you don't know what will happen next. But to write a story itself is just crazy. It is as I could create a world and to take over one of the most important parts in it. How can you escape the sometimes boring reality better? I have no answer. There are many hobbies in the world that produce probably similar feelings, but not for me and that I've finally realized. It is always fun. Any part of this work. Sometimes more, sometimes less. That's always been the case. When I hear certain songs, I think immediately of Logan and Youna and there unique love, like for example demons of imagine dragons. It is easy, because this title tell a lot of it, but when I found it, it  was still unknown (to me), and it fits so perfectly to Logan. The love he feels for Youna and that from the first moment. His world has changed. His plans were different and are so extremely different from the point he is now. This plans can  never mean the same for him, after meeting Youna. That he has experienced the feeling of love and well, to what I say. I have created this. Logan is the most interesting person in this story for me. Even though they are all unique and great. But he has the most to lose and he is still  my favorite character in the story. This entry was actually my personal entry in my write diary. I have previously always precisely planned all my post and thought about what I should write. Never have I just putt one of my entries here, but it says so much for myself, that I would not forget. I wouldn't like to lose it under all of my thousand entries in my private diary. Not it is online and I find it easier if I doubt again. Good night every one. 

Happy New Year

Okay, this title is probably a bit late, but who gives a shit. I am sorry for that. I mean I know I haven’t been writing about writing anymore. Well it is already four months ago. But in this four months I have been working. Working in so many different ways that I can live good with the idea that I haven’t been writing here. School is going great, my marriage couldn't be better right now and my actual work is also fine. But the biggest thing is my book. It is not finished if some of you have hoped that, but it is so close to be. I was reading just now my latest post. There I was not even finished with the I-Perspective. Well that problem is long time gone. I have finished this step. Now I am checking to logic in my book. I look what makes sense and what doesn't. I also see that my characters grow. I really love them and they start to talk by themselves  There are almost alive. But like I say it’s not perfect yet. There are still a few things I have to do. I gave my book now to my best friend Verena. I think I am allowed to say her name out loud here J Verena was helping me a lot with this great story. She is honest, just that what I need. Maybe she is not saying everything, but that would be also not good for me. It’s about the perfect middle of being honest and being still a friend who doesn't want to run someone down. I think I found this friend. Better, I know I did. She gave me some of her ideas and I believe this ideas are making the story to that what it is today. Of course it was me who had to choose from all of this great ideas, putting them all together and write them into my story, but she was a bit help.

Then there is one other person that helps me. Everybody thinks probably now my husband. Well he is also a help (he believes in me unconditionally) , but I don't mean him. I am talking about my lovely mother. I know everybody says he or she has the best mother in the world, but when I say it, it’s the truth ;-)

She is also reading my book right now. She is not checking the story like Verena does. She is there for the right spelling (my story is in German, so I don’t make as many mistakes as in English). Well, I hope so.

So I have finished the I-Perspective and I reviewed my book now the third time. That was the moment I had to give it to someone to read it. I think I would have found myself a few things, but after a while you getting as a writer blind for mistakes. My mother and Verena don't.

Otherwise my life is fine, like I said before. Eugene and I were in Amsterdam for New Year and three weeks ago we came back from our two weeks South African vacation. Now I am back at work. Oh and my little sister and me are getting along better then ever. She comes quite often to us now. And we almost write everyday with each other. I want her to know, how much I love her and finally I have the chance to do tell her every day. Don’t take me wrong. I love all my siblings. Stefanie, Lisa, Kimberly and Patrick, but with Lisa is something different  My older sister is also one of my best friends so she doesn't count only as sister. So that is something else. But what I got with Lisa is so different. Maybe it feels like that because I am a big sister now. I learned how important it is to be a good person for her. I want her to know that she is so special, it doesn't matter what comes. My older sister knows how great she is, but a eleven years old girl gets lost easy and I don't want that to happen to her. A little bit like Youna and Fabienne. Not that I feel like Youna. I mean she is so strict and I am totally not but the feeling is same. Maybe that made it so easy to write the feelings Youna has, when she sees Fabienne.

Anyway. I have a lot of work still to do and still a few things to change on my Bestseller ;-)

I hope I keep on writing here a bit more often then in the past. Good night everyone.