My World about writing my first Novel: Questions, Qustions and more Questions

My World about writing my first Novel: Questions, Qustions and more Questions: So my new Post is about my book Symbiose. I am really trying right now. I had the last week not so much time. My new baby-brother was...

Questions, Qustions and more Questions

So my new Post is about my book Symbiose.

I am really trying right now. I had the last week not so much time. My new baby-brother was on Saturday born. So I went there on Sunday. Also on Saturday I went to the movies. I watched all five movies from Twilight. It was so cool, also great that they have changed the end a bit. Don’t take me wrong. I love the books, but the end was a bit boring.  When I was finally on Sunday at home, with nothing to do or think about, I was able to think about my own book. But instead of thinking about Symbiose what I am working on right now, I thought about the second book. The most Teeny Books with a love story have two guys, fighting for the one girl. My book doesn’t have that. Well, not right now. So will it be still a good love story? Or does it have to have to men who are fighting. So that the reader can decide with one he or she likes more? There are so many questions where I don’t have an answer yet.  I will see what the characters are telling me to do. Because I am new in this, I learn every single day. It’s so funny that I just decided to write a book. I mean, now I have so much stress because of it, but I also get a pleasure of it. I really hope the changes I made so far, will be good. I had a book that was talking also about editing the own book. Sometimes beginner change, things just because they can’t see what is good and which is not.

Now my characters love each other, but something will change. There is not the happy ending they were hoping for. That’s for sure. More I can’t say about it right now, because I am not finished. The book and the idea are kind of finished, but there is still a lot to do, before I can even think about publishing. There is also still the question if I want to do it by myself. I think I try first with an agency.

Today I got school again and I really hate it right now that I have to go there. But then I think to myself, only two more years. I will never stop writing so what is two years? Of course, I have a bit of stress right now, but I can imagine how easy it will feel like, when I just have to go to work and afterwards I can write like for two or three hours every day. On the weekend even more, because then I don’t have to learn (or go to school) also a new thing for me to go on weekends to school.  My life couldn’t be better right now, even if I am not at my normal Workplace. Because of my school I have to work for three weeks in a different place. I like working with children. No. that was not right. I love to work with them. I like every single one. There are special and I learn a lot from them as well. But usually I work with children in the age of 3-6 years. Now I work with the babies till 3 years. That is not my age. Hope I will get at least a good great for that.

That was all for today. I have to make myself ready to go to school.

My Bookcover

I have talked in my last post already a little bit about my story. So you know now it is not about Vampires. Even if I love this kind of stories. My story is about a demon. There are strong, they drink the soul of humans and the most of them, can control the humans as they want. They are getting older, but when they take the soul of a human live, they are getting younger again.

I made already a book-cover, but now I don't like it so much anymore. I made yesterday a new one. I want to show you that. Please be totally honest with me. I don't mind. I was thinking anyway that I should pay someone. But I will do that only, when the book is really done.

Since I have made my huge changes, I am far away from being finished. Today I have school again and I hope I get my rhythmic results back. Right now I just got A's in my classes, but right now I am not in the mood to even go there. I work from 8 a.m. till 4:30 p.m. then my school starts at 5:30 p.m. until 9:30 p.m. So of course I rather don’t go and work on my first book, just because I love writing it so much. I know it is difficult and it is even much more stressful then I ever thought. I read a book with 400 pages in two days (when I have time and it's good written) but I never thought that it takes so long to do it. Always when I read a good story I think to myself, that is really a good story, but how difficult can it be to create something like that, also the characters? But now I know. It is hard. I started in March to write. Before that, I was having my research and the plot.

Anyway, I know so much better. I really hope, that my story gives the readers the same warm feeling I got, when I wrote it. Hope you will enjoy it!!!

Here now my book-cover (first draft)

 

 

Like I said, please be honest. 

I am Struggling

Actually I wanted to write about my story today. But since I was working on it today, I am so confused. There is a few things I need to change. I explain now what the problem is. My story is about a young girl that lost both parents. she has now custody for her eleven years old sister. Her best friend moves with her together from new York to Oregon  They doing good and Youna even falls in love. He is special. NO VAMPIRE!!! now i had first the perspective of everyone. But that didn't seem right. So as i said in my first post, i changed it to one-person-perspective. The only different was, there were three people telling the story. I saw already in the beginning that this wont work. So i changed it to two. That was okay. Now(i am a beginner) i changed it again. Its seems to be right but it gives mote hints now what he is. Before it was not really a secrete. now it should but its not really. because i changed so much. i have the feeling its more like twilight and all this books. now my question to myself is. do i want that? i honestly don't know. my actual idea is so changed. only the names the age and the reason for them to live is the same. i still believe i the story. cause i just started reading mystic story's. but the rest of the world is maybe finished with it. that is the problem i got right now. should i change it so much? if i take Logan's point of view away there is a lot missing. but maybe that will make the story more interesting. I have no idea whether I totally should take out Logan's point of view. It is, I think, more exciting. I believe I have given Logan an own view because I thought it easier. But now I think it is too difficult. Because he has only four chapters and these are not even one at a time. So the reader is forced after a chapter to understand, who now speaks first. I don't know, if I want that. which has 220 pages away. That would be total shit.

Well, that was my first dairy entry. But after I did, what I said in the beginning, I was even more confused.
This is the problems we beginners have. Maybe you have the same as me. :-)

That's my second diary entry from today:

I have taken out now everything from Logan's point of view. I've processed the upper part, which I have written. It is like twilight, but what should I do? This is as it should stop. Before I destroy everything, about me, just because the readers don't understand who's just talking. Perhaps, it is also so a little more interesting. It comes out, Yes actually already pretty much at the beginning. So that the reader will understand what Logan is. Let me see. It is just funny that I have thought that I will finish this week. HAHA, this is now much more Work than I thought. But hey, that must be. Clearly, I've been much busier and I am a beginner. But there are actually only the names, the age and the city, nothing else. I continue now another 20 minutes and then go.

My Week

Well this week was not as good as I hoped. I finished so far, one chapter. I also don't have so much time to tell you, how I am doing. I need to go to a Party. I am not boring or anything. But I have my thoughts anyway just by Symbiose. So I won’t be much fun right now. People I am telling that I write a book have all the same reaction. "WOW that is so great. I am sure you make it. You will be the next Stephenie Meyer." Let me say something about that. It is nice and in the beginning I thought, wow the people really understand me and they believe in me. You know what? They don't. They didn't even read it. They don't know what my book is about. So, maybe they know that, if I say I do something, 90% of it, I do it. But still. It is nice and I am glad I got good friends. They don't run me down, telling me I can't do it. That would be stupid for me. But also it puts now a lot of pressure on me. What is, if my book isn't as great as they thought it would be?

That's my problem right now. I don't know. I honestly love the story. I love the people who live in it and I enjoy reading about them. Even if I had to do it more than 6 times. And I know it will not be the last time. Especially, since I change the perspective. But I enjoy doing it. That is the most important thing.

I have to say I am glad when it will be finished and also published, which is not that difficult today anymore. Thanks to the e-books. Because I believe I will have more fun, reading it again. There is no chance that I can change it again.

I am also looking already for an editor and also someone who will make my book-cover. I know I have to pay for it, but it will be worth it.

My sister is calling me now. I need to go. My husband stayed at home. My sister broke up with her boyfriend and needs now a sister who does all this crazy-going-out-again-thing.

So I do it :-) Hope you have all a great weekend. I will write tomorrow, before I go to work. Yes I have to work at Sundays, because I work in a Kindergarten from the church :-)

 Tomorrow I hope to do much better.  Like two chapters. Then, there are only 3 more to do. 

New Week

Hi there again.

I didn't write that night, but I wrote on my book Symbiose. I must say, it really works out for me, to have a two chapter rule. First I had only two per week, but that week I didn't go to work, I had to use the time. And I did. I feel fantastic to say that I am almost finished with the revise. I have so many ideas in my head and since I worked a little bit harder and more intensive with it, more ideas are coming up in my head. In my story are demons. But I had no idea what they want. I mean. Why are there in my story. I knew that this is one of the biggest problems. I didn't think about them enough. That is probably the biggest problem for new writers. I had all my research. I also had my figures. There hobbies, lifestyle, even the way they speak. But for this two, I didn't have a reason to be there. Now, since I worked harder, I finally found a reason for them to be there. And it is better than I thought. I love to read and after I understand the characters, I think to myself. Wow how did the writer come up with that? I mean the live of a vampire for example. But now I have the same and I hope people will also think about my ideas like that. My friend did. But well, as I say, she is my friend.

Now the last four days I was working hard on Symbiose. Now I have finished the first 12 chapters. I wanted to read it on my eBook. Don't take me wrong. There are mistakes. Big-Ones. But it is easier to read it now, since I changed the perspective. I started reading it. Sometimes I even forgot that I wrote it. There have to be more changes, but for now, it is a really good row draft. I think.

Hope I can help. Please ask me if you want to know anything. Maybe I will be able to help you. I have a lot of books, about writing a book. So I have a bit of a clue what is important for new writers

:-)

I need to go to school now. I was working until 15:30 and now I will be at school for the next 4 hours. So I used my little free time to tell you, how good I feel right now about myself. And that is also important for us writers. Even, if it’s not perfect right now. Feel good about yourself. You finished your Goal today? BE PROUD OF IT!!!!

It's funny that I never thought about writing, even when I believe I am good in that. Destiny I would call it. Even, if I will never make money with it. I will still enjoy myself. That is lucky. To find something in your life, that makes you happy. Like a ticket in the lottery. I am ready to collect my Jackpot :-)

Good evening to all of you

 

Revise

I finished my first Novel. But all the time I was reading it thru, something was wrong. So that's why I change everything to first-person-perspective.
I can't tell you how much work that is. But at least I can see now, how much better it is already. I mean first there were are lot characters telling the story. Now its only two, but you get them much better.
Youna is the main character  so it was important for me, that people like her. But the story and her lovely personality didn't shine thru. Now love her even more. She is a caring person, who wants the best for her family. Logan is first not as nice, but he also get's to that point later.
Today I was staying at home. So  I said to myself I will finish two chapters  Right now I am still finished with one. But I can still make it, if I try.
For all the writers out there. Don't put your own goal down. I said I am going to finish two, so I will finish two :-)
This is all I can say. I would be glad if people enjoy what I am telling them about the process from my first book.
I must say I really like my own story. Like I said. I started almost a year ago. I also started in same minute  a diary just for me. If I look at it today it makes me smile. I have changed already so much, form that actual Idea. Funny how things turn out sometimes. I never thought I would ever write a book. I love reading, since I spended a year in the USA and I couldn't speak a word. So I started reading. But writing is something else. My friend and I started making jokes, after we watched Breaking Dawn. I enjoy the book as well as the movie, but we had some changes. We were also kind of drunk. So we decided to write a own book. She didn't, but I woke up the next morning, thinking to myself. Hell, yes. I will write a book. Since that day I can't stop thinking about it.
After five really hard month, my first raw version was finished. That was in August. Now I revise it. Two month I did that, without noticing that I used the whole time the wrong perspective. Luckily I  finally did see it.
I am not so sure if I even bother to get an agency. Maybe I should publish it in amazon.
That was all from me today. Sorry if my English is not as good as you may expected. My book is actually in German.
I go now and eat a bit. But after my dinner and after I have finished my two chapters, I will write about that.
And I actually still have to see, how I make my blog looking good. Also what I am supposed to write  here. :-)