I am Struggling

Actually I wanted to write about my story today. But since I was working on it today, I am so confused. There is a few things I need to change. I explain now what the problem is. My story is about a young girl that lost both parents. she has now custody for her eleven years old sister. Her best friend moves with her together from new York to Oregon  They doing good and Youna even falls in love. He is special. NO VAMPIRE!!! now i had first the perspective of everyone. But that didn't seem right. So as i said in my first post, i changed it to one-person-perspective. The only different was, there were three people telling the story. I saw already in the beginning that this wont work. So i changed it to two. That was okay. Now(i am a beginner) i changed it again. Its seems to be right but it gives mote hints now what he is. Before it was not really a secrete. now it should but its not really. because i changed so much. i have the feeling its more like twilight and all this books. now my question to myself is. do i want that? i honestly don't know. my actual idea is so changed. only the names the age and the reason for them to live is the same. i still believe i the story. cause i just started reading mystic story's. but the rest of the world is maybe finished with it. that is the problem i got right now. should i change it so much? if i take Logan's point of view away there is a lot missing. but maybe that will make the story more interesting. I have no idea whether I totally should take out Logan's point of view. It is, I think, more exciting. I believe I have given Logan an own view because I thought it easier. But now I think it is too difficult. Because he has only four chapters and these are not even one at a time. So the reader is forced after a chapter to understand, who now speaks first. I don't know, if I want that. which has 220 pages away. That would be total shit.

Well, that was my first dairy entry. But after I did, what I said in the beginning, I was even more confused.
This is the problems we beginners have. Maybe you have the same as me. :-)

That's my second diary entry from today:

I have taken out now everything from Logan's point of view. I've processed the upper part, which I have written. It is like twilight, but what should I do? This is as it should stop. Before I destroy everything, about me, just because the readers don't understand who's just talking. Perhaps, it is also so a little more interesting. It comes out, Yes actually already pretty much at the beginning. So that the reader will understand what Logan is. Let me see. It is just funny that I have thought that I will finish this week. HAHA, this is now much more Work than I thought. But hey, that must be. Clearly, I've been much busier and I am a beginner. But there are actually only the names, the age and the city, nothing else. I continue now another 20 minutes and then go.