30.04.2013
So, today is a public holiday and I should have
work hard on the book, but it wasn’t. First reason is, because Eugene was
there. I don’t know why, but this is bugging me, when he is at home and I can’t
work. Then he was at work, but I had started to read the book for the school
Erebus. Then, I wanted to have it done and kept on reading. 480 Pages and I
made it in less than 24 hours. Well, I had very many pages just flew over, but
I've got everything I needed to know. That’s the most important thing.
Yesterday I read even the other book, Kiss of the demon, and I liked it. It is
really crazy how much I want to read right now. I'm really addicted to it. I
already have the second part of the book, laying next to me, but before I want
to work on symbiosis. Verena finds the name by the way good. Well, and it is
also somehow fitting. No idea. I'll see. After I've now read these books Ruby
Red + and now this demons-Kiss book, I have the impression my book is stupid.
The people are good, but somehow not like these bestsellers. Youna simply thinks
too little or too rational. It is not like the other characters in these books.
Bella from twilight was also rational but still she had something special. This
is not always the case with Youna. The situations I get this great feeling of
her, the situations I think I succeeded, I can count them on one hand. No idea
what else I could do with her. This means again a lot of more work for me. The
story has still spelling errors. And the logic part is also not completely done
and now that with Youna too. But and this is the most important, I have not
sent anything away. It is still here, safe with me. If I ask the best of myself
and criticize me enough by my own, only then I can, and I will have success. I
am convinced. The story itself will maybe (no for sure) not find approval from
everyone. I am sure there will be people who say that it has the wrong message
for young people. People who say that the story conveys a false morality, it is
cheesy or the end is stupid. But if someone writes well, there is a little
chance of hearting the Author. Many things will be forgiven by the reader, if
the story is great written. Things, that itself would interfere with a fan or
where they think: I would have written it different. The choice of words and
the behavior of the characters must be perfect, and that is not the case with
me or Youna. I read only books that have celebrated a great success. The books
are all in a series that is already long finished. They found already a lot of
readers and that is why I automatically compare my book with these ones. I
always end up saying: damn, those are
better, so much better. I don’t know what I should do with Youna, so that it
reflects what I would like to have. But well, no more whining.
Here is a different
subject now. I had a Idea about a girl
who used to take drugs. More I can’t say now. I didn’t really work much on it,
because I am to busy with Youna. But this idea popped up in my head. And while
I took a shower this morning, I found two great and fitting names for the boys
in the story. I think I would like to
call the two brothers Eddy and Eliot. For the girl I like Sarah. Somehow I like
also willow. I still don't know.
But the biggest problem I still have is that I
still have to go to work. It would be much cooler to stay at home and write.
Now, I'll do my best. There are always bestsellers in this world and why should
I not be one of them? I can do it, if I just want it enough and do my best.
That was it for
today.
